I knew this semester would be hard. Everyone told me that I'm crazy for going to nursing school and working full time. They told me that I shouldn't do it, that I won't do well, yada yada. Yes, working full time and going to school full time is hard. It's definitely not the funnest thing in the world. But the sense of accomplishment I feel after every week, that I've made it through another week, and that I'm doing okay, makes it worth it. Kind of. I keep telling myself it'll pay off in the end. It better....
The hardest part though, is not spending time with my sweet husband. I can't tell you how much I miss him when I go straight from school to work. Or how much I hate that I have to work every weekend. Literally, every weekend. I hate that we don't have time to go on fun dates and spend time with family. I hate that the time that we do have together, we're too tired from our schedules to do anything but go to bed. But I have the most amazing husband, who encourages me, uplifts me when I'm feeling down, and pushes me to keep going. I'm not going to say that I don't get upset, depressed, lonely, and mad about my schedule, Because I do. I'm jealous of those that don't have to work and can spend the weekend with their spouse or significant other. But Jackson reminds me that we're working these crazy schedules to benefit our future, and that while it sucks now, it'll be worth it in the end. He reminds me that if we can just get through these next few years, we will be able to better provide for our future family. He tells me that I can do it, and is so patient with my weekly meltdowns. He listens to me rant about the same thing every week, about how tired I am, about how much I miss seeing him, seeing our families, going on dates, and whatever else I'm feeling down about. He calmly tells me that it'll be okay and that we will make it through it. Then he kisses me on the forehead, tells me he loves me, and holds me. I couldn't have asked for a more sweet, understanding, and amazing husband.
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